The Beauty of Illness

I got sick…not Covid but pneumonia, my old friend from many years ago.

So like most humans, I denied it, tried to act like it wasn’t happening, and finally went to bed. I did what you are supposed to do. Treated myself, took the herbs, got treatment from my healers, slept, and waited.

It lasted a while.

I tried to understand why I had created it, I asked what it was teaching me. In Chinese medicine lungs signify unresolved grief. I worked with that, cleared many, many patterns, and just kept looking in.

I kept trying to find softness for myself, I kept trying to love moments of my day, find joy, and be cleared out.

Eventually I got better.

Ultimately, I’m not sure of the lesson. I see how it served me. I see what I learned.
On the other side, I am a different person.

I find myself walking on the wide green fields, seeing the corn shining tall above me, and visiting with a friend. I feel alive, enlivened, and blessed.

What is the opportunity of illness?

To love our humanness, surrender to what is, keep moving forward when the path is unclear, to find greater love and compassion for ourselves…

I think it is different each time and for each of us, but I am sure it is one more thing we have to embrace.

Somehow loving my frailty lets me just be.

Being willing to not know, to keep letting go til the simplest thing becomes stunning. Til breathing, seeing the emerald green grass, and feeling the love from others brings diamond clear awakening moments.

Maybe this is the beauty of illness…

In this channeling-One of Kristina's Guides speaks about bringing in the Spiritual Light from Sirius.

In this channeling, the Guide team speaks about the gifts of illness.